Wouldn't stop demanding.
Wouldn't stop hurting.
Wouldn't stop disappointing.
We live in a world of goals and ambition. Selfish ambition.
We live in a world where the pleasing of the individual is the end goal of every day.
To the detriment of all others.
It makes me wonder how I will ever bear the rest of my days. This strange world is so far from Home. I am lonely and sad and hurt.
He says "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. " Matthew 11:28-30
Where do we lay our load? Don't try putting it on the backs of others. You will suffer endless disappointment and despair. It sounds so terrible but even your best friend, your sweetheart, your most faithful companion here will at some point disappoint you.
And what about yourself? Doesn't disappointment come when we feel we have not had our needs met? How about putting your needs last. How about dying to self. "When your good is evil spoken of, when your wishes crossed, your advice disregarded, your opinions ridiculed, and you refuse to let anger rise in your heart, or even defend yourself, but take all in patient, loving silence, that is dying to self."
And just remember what He has shown to you. Unconditional love. Mercy. Grace. You won't learn how to show unconditional love if they meet all of the conditions. You won't learn how to show mercy or how to be long suffering if they never fail you, if they never sin against you. You will never learn grace, how to pour out lavishly your favour on someone who does not deserve it, if they are always deserving of all good things. (Paul Washer, paraphrase).
Each day is one where the world reaches to pulls you down. But He lifts you up.
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid." John 14:27
